Shiva Baby (2020)

What this is, is a full-blown anxiety attack that lasts for an hour and 10 minutes. And the end, well, it gives you the exact kind of catharsis you need after such an overwhelming event- nothing grand or overstimulating, just a simple reminder that maybe things will work out for the better after all, even after the most draining of days. That's what worked best for me in this movie, the realisation that things keep on piling up and tumbling down, but through it all, the undercurrent is always present that whatever happens, happens for the best. It's a reminder that I keep close to me, it's one way for me to stay sane. So when I see a fellow chaotic bisexual come to the same realisation, albeit more cinematically than I do, it's a relief that makes the anxiety attack so worth it (purely as a movie-watcher I mean, anxiety attacks are never worth it).

As for the representation part, Emma Seligman got it so spot-on that I honestly have nothing left to add, except to urge all bisexuals out there to go watch it. There were so many ways in which it could have gone wrong, but she controlled all those bits in the most masterful way possible. Even in such a short span of time, the characters are all drawn out quite well, despite feeling a little caricaturish in places. My absolute favourite moment in the movie was when Maya (Molly Gordon) described Kim (Dianna Agron) as quite possibly the most beautiful woman she had ever seen... I truly felt that with all my Quinn Fabray loving soul. It was also so lovely to see Dianna commanding the entire screen with just her beauty and her expressions. She is such a good actor, and I hope even better scripts come her way in the future. I missed being awestruck by her. 

In conclusion, this is the representation I needed this pride month, and I'm glad I got it. Thank you for coming through, Ms. Seligman, and my MUBI subscription (especially because I watched a fuckton of useless movies thanks to the latter ugh).